Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Honeydew Retchless: Week 35

Size of Baby: 5.25 lbs and 18+ inches long. Dude, he's a honeydew. That is no joke to carry around 24-7!

Workouts: 3 Bar Method Classes, and a few Nana walks...our girl is having some hip/leg (TBD Thursday) issues so there has been a lot of R&R around here. 
 
Maternity Clothes: Ugh...I dislike all clothes unless they are size XXXXXXXXXXXL! I just want to wear a Mumu from here to the end. 

Movement: Swift, firm jabs. He is definitely losing space to rock and roll and the movements are more precise and mostly in my ribs or low, low, low.

Symptoms: Pregnancy brain remains. I think the pregnant waddle has officially set in as well.

What I Miss: Just generally being a non-pregnant person. I shaved my legs last night and it was seriously some kind of Cirque du Soliel act. This belly is grandiose and very much in the way (remind me of this when I have bump envy in about a year!).

Girl or BoyBoy!
 
Belly button In or Out: Out! Scott looked at me last night and said, "do you have an outie?!". Oh, yes I do. Turkey baster says this baby is cooked!

Stretch Marks: Nope. 

Cravings: I'm actually becoming a little indifferent to food. Nothing ever really sounds great and I don't find myself very hungry either. The main reason I remember to eat is because I get very grumpy when it is time to dine! My boys all appreciate me grabbing a snack at this point!
 
Best Moment This Week: Getting a ton crossed of the "to do" list. While my workouts were slim this week I more than made up for it with the amount that I managed to jam in on Sunday. We cleaned, organized, shopped, etc. ALL day. I also ordered all of the remaining "buy before Cooper" items and when the mattress arrives tomorrow we will be all set (and I'll work on a room reveal for you). With the arrival of our final diapers.com order for Cooper, Scott and I are both in disbelief over the size of the newborn diapers! Hard to believe they are that small...how quickly we forget! 

Had a hard time with the picture this week.
This one cracks me up the most. We were headed to Noah's soccer class and it struck me as funny that it looked like I was carrying a soccer ball under my shirt!

Monday, April 7, 2014

Cantaloupe Retchless: Week 34

Size of Baby: 5ish lbs. and 18 inches.

Workouts: 3 Bar Method Classes, 1 Dish hike, and 6 Nana walks. I accidentally spotted my weight at the doctor this week. Same as my delivery weight with Noah. I freaked out for a little while and then realized there was nothing I could do. I am staying extremely active, eating well, and really doing exactly nothing different than I did with Noah. So c'est la vie...it will be what it will be.

Just a random picture of my favorite two year old. While our morning at Happy Hollow wore.me.out. (see symptoms below), it was worth the swollen feet to make him this happy!
Maternity Clothes: Yes. And the non maternity tops I try to wear are starting to get a little short! 

Movement: Holy mover! I swear Coop is more active than Noah. He pretty much assaults all areas of my mid section constantly. I don't think he is staying head down at this point as it seems he is rocking and rolling all over the place!
 
Symptoms: 1. Fatigue. I am starting to feel very pregnant these days. The little tasks are getting more and more challenging as the days go by. For the most part I just power through (not a lot of choice with a two year old) but I find myself napping more often than not. 2. "This baby is going to fall out" syndrome. I never had this feeling with Noah but when I got on long walks (i.e.-the Dish) I seriously feel like Cooper might just fall out. It is especially apparent on the downhill and leaves me feeling a little nervous. 3. Forgetfulness. You have to tattoo things on my forehead or I forget them. Even lists are proving ineffective. I went to the grocery and had pancake mix on the list. Didn't buy it. It's actually alarming how poorly my brain works in this department lately!

My nesting/DIY/to do list is also an uncontrollable symptom. Almost have the boy's room complete!

This is something I wish wasn't on that list. Leaky pipes in the side of your house are really not awesome.
 
What I Miss: I don't necessarily miss any one thing. I am at the point where the fatigue, hunger, sleeplessness, seem to be permanent so I am looking forward to remembering that these are all related to pregnancy and that once I am recovered I will get my groove back! 

Ok, I will revise this to say doing things not permitted for pregnant people. Our gutters are a mess and I would desperately like to just scurry up a ladder and get the most offensive ones taken care of. I don't mind doing house work and it actually bugs me more to have to nag Scott to do it. #housewifeproblems

Girl or BoyBoy!
 
Belly button In or Out: Out! 

Stretch Marks: Nope. 

Cravings: Still can't get enough pretzels and chocolate chips.
 
Best Moment This Week: Another doctor visit (every two weeks now!). I got to see the little guy and hear his heartbeat. That seriously never gets old. My cervix is apparently softening but this also apparently means nothing at this point. Dr. R said I can go about my daily routine and don't need to change anything at this point. Not much else notable from my appointment...which is a good thing! Happy, healthy mom and baby! 

Scott took the picture, finally! Hooray!

Monday, March 31, 2014

Pineapple Retchless: Week 33

Size of Baby: 4+ lbs and 17+ inches

Workouts: 3 Bar Method Classes, 1 Dish hike, and 4 Nana walks.
 
Maternity Clothes: Yes, although I still jam myself into my non maternity Lulu pants and a handful of tops much to the general public's chagrin I'd imagine. 

Movement:Starting the fun movements of knees, elbows, fists across my belly. Scott was able to feel him swimming laps around my left side the other night.

Symptoms: Hip pain. Pregnancy brain. Peeing constantly. Acne. Pretty much a typical third trimester pregnant person. 
 
One new one is that my feet seem to have expanded. They aren't swollen but just generally wider. I had to wear a pair of heels this weekend and it was comical watching me try to jam my foot in the narrow foot bed! 

What I Miss: Not much to report. Kind of looking forward to ditching the Snoogle from bed though...it makes for a bit of a lumpy look when all made up ;-). 

Girl or BoyBoy!
 
Belly button In or Out: Out! 

Stretch Marks: Nope. 

Cravings: Pretzels and chocolate chips. I'm an addict. I am not sure how I am going to break this delicious little 9:30pm habit!
 
Best Moment This Week: Family time. We attended a funeral on Saturday and it was a reminder to snuggle my boys extra close and enjoy every moment. 
That lovely little line down the middle is toothpaste. Note to self...clean mirrors this week.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Jicama Retchless: Week 32

No fields this week! Too much other fun stuff to talk about to waste time with innie versus outie belly buttons (it's out...for the record).

This week I had a fantastic visit at my doctor AND we made some serious progress on prepping the house for Cooper's homecoming.

Let's start with the doctor:

Last week I mentioned I was curious as to what position he was in. Turns out, he is all.over.the.place. He apparently has lots of room to swim around right now so his flip flopping is totally normal. At one point during my ultrasound he had his head on my left hand side but wiggled around so he was head down a couple minutes later. They won't check to make sure he is officially head down until 36 weeks. 

During my ultrasound we could also see his little rib cage expanding and contracting and the doctor said that was him practicing his breathing! He was also working on his sucking (another paci loving boy?!). And, let me tell you, those little lips get me every time. Can't wait to give them kisses!

Overall, Coop looks great! No concerns and he is growing right along and doing all the things a baby in a belly should be.

Same news for me. They kept telling me that I am "doing great" and that I am "almost there". Those are the moments that you want to ask your male doctor if he has ever carried a baby for 9 months and how his hips feel! I'm kidding...my doctor is amazing and we did discuss my hip pain. Ultimately, it's normal. My hormones are loosening up my hip joints/muscles to prepare my body for Cooper's exit. Since this is my second pregnancy and I am already carrying lower than I did with Noah, I am just experiencing more discomfort. Things to try...support band, physical therapy. Both of these sound like last resorts! I spoke with another OB friend who recommended a less severe side lying position. I don't suffer from any lightheadedness while laying in any position and so a slight prop behind my back will be more than sufficient as opposed to placing all my weight on my hips at night. So far, it has given me enough relief. It's not completely gone, but I don't wake up and feel like I might fall over from pain.

It was a bit crazy to finish my appointment by scheduling the remainder of my appointments for this pregnancy. Including one on May 29th. I will lose my mind on someone if Cooper is still occupying my uterus on that date!

It's funny, with Noah, the moment I was pregnant I was invested/attached/in love. This time I had a harder time becoming invested in the pregnancy. Of course we were thrilled, I just didn't really have this over the moon feeling, and had my guard up, until we knew he was healthy and got out of the first trimester. That and once we knew he was a boy we had a name for him. With all of his kicking lately this bond has been growing but at my appointment my heart pretty much exploded. I think with Noah I was excited about the idea of having a baby. I had no idea what to expect or how he would take more love than I ever knew that I had to give. With Cooper, I am now officially in love with him. I know what's coming, I am anxious for the baby snuggles and smells. It took me awhile to be in love with Noah the baby, versus Noah the pregnancy. With Coop, I don't think I loved the pregnancy until now and I officially love him!

I am just over the moon about meeting our little man and officially adding him to our family. I don't know how I will have the capacity to love him as much as I do my Noah but I hear your heart grows just a little bit more (I can already feel it stretching)! 

Ok, I lied...we are going to save the Cooper prep recap for another post. This is long and I need to take some pictures of the room to share. Stay tuned...
32 weeks. He sure is pointy! 
32 weeks with Noah. Coop is definitely lower and more pointy. I swear I will have Scott take a picture again one of these days!

Monday, March 24, 2014

Baby Cooper Wish List

We have more than enough stuff for Baby Cooper! Seriously, my organization skills are being pushed to their limits having two boys share a not-so-big room (more on this in my weekly pregnancy update this week). That said, there are a few things we need to refresh, equal out (I can't have one boy with a name sign and not the other!), and a few things I just plain want. So, here is a portion of the current list for what we still need/want for Coop.

Vintage Pearl Charm
I have a necklace with a "Noah" charm and definitely want to get my Cooper charm on its way. 
My Noah charm is the square. Should Coop's be square, too? Or switch it up?

Coming Home Outfit
Decisions, decisions. I have a million outfits picked out and saved across the internet but haven't pulled the trigger on "the one" just yet.  And, the hilarious part is that this is the one and only picture I have of Noah in his. This means two things...don't waste a lot of money & take more pictures this time! With Noah, we were just ready to get out of the hospital and weren't about to hang out for a photoshoot.
He rode with his hands like that forever!
Orbit Kickboard
I guess this is more for Noah than Cooper but we'll be needing a way to transport both of our little guys around town. I think Noah will find this very cool!! 
We could probably go to space after our trip to the mall!
Double Bob
Fact: We have 3 strollers. Fact #2: We use(d) all of them. While three stroller may seem excessive, they each served a specific purpose and have proved worth their investment (Orbit as infants, Maclaren as umbrella, and Bob as jogger). Currently our Bob gets the most time on the road. I use it for hiking the Dish as well as Nana walks almost every evening. It is a beast and a pain to lug around in the car, but I think it is far and away the most comfortable for Noah, has the most storage, and the best ride. I would really like to add a 4th stroller to our cast at some point and have decided the Bob makes the most sense for our active little family.
Sling
I hear baby wearing becomes pretty darn necessary when you have a toddler and an infant. While we already have an Ergo & Bjorn I have heard that they can get hot in the summer months so I would like to try my hand at a sling. I had a Moby Wrap that I was not a fan of so I am thinking the sling might be a better option! 
Snuza Diaper Monitor
I have an extremely high fear of SIDS. Not sure why this one has buried itself into my psyche but it scares the living daylights out of me. With Noah, we used the AngelCare monitor and I felt totally at peace. This time around I found an even more exciting little device! It clips on to their diapers and does the same thing as our monitor. I would LOVE this for the few months when he is in our room and as a double check for when he makes the move to the crib (we will use the AngelCare again). 
Ergo Infant Insert
Again, baby wearing. Noah loved the Ergo but I never invested in the infant insert (I faked it with some blankets). Just preparing for the need to have my hands free for Noah.
Miracle Blanket
I have no first hand experience with this but it is called a miracle blanket and I have heard it lives up to its name. Sold. 
Bedding
A terrible thing happened. PBKids discontinued the bedding I used for Noah (well, the color anyway). What's a girl to do (Scott said he couldn't even comment on my "crisis" and left the room)?! My current solution is to ditch the bedskirt on Noah's bed, keep his bumper, and get matching sheets. That way the existing pieces on two different beds (skirt on Cooper's, bumper on Noah's) pull together and there is a matching middle piece. Not ideal, but I am not very interested in buying two new bedding sets (especially when Noah will be converting to a toddler bed in the next year).
Blue Chevron. Already have one for Noah's bed so I will get a second to match. Chevron is not my favorite though.
Gingham. Now this is a pattern I can get behind! Navy, again.
Navy dots. You see a theme?
Switching it up for some green alligators. Noah loves his sheet with elephants so maybe another critter would be fun?


Pottery Barn Glider
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaant. We currently have my Great Grandma's rocking chair which is a prized possession of mine. However, the minute we visit PBKids and I flop down in one of their gliders it is pretty much heaven on earth. Our rocking chair is wood & bamboo and vertical. Plus, it creaks, as any old piece of furniture does. I have daydreams of curling up in this glider and snuggling the boys. Alas, it is seriously pushing the space constraints of the room and has a hefty price tag so we will stay the course with the rocker. I just can't wait until the boys realize that the high back makes for the best tent maker ever!

Birthstone Rings
We're in the land of daydreaming, right? I might as well share my biggest wish list item. At some point in my life I would like a band with each of my boys birthstones. I would likely wear Scott's as a second wedding band and the boys would probably reside together on my right hand. That said, I could get crazy and wear them all stacked or skip the engagement ring for a day and put them all on my left hand. One day! 



And, there you have it. Those things combined with the exciting items like a mattress, diapers, and pacifiers and we'll be ready to hit the ground running in eight short weeks!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

slack.

I read something by way of a Facebook post recently (apologies for not having the source...) that included the idea that we often need to cut ourselves the slack we would give to our friends. This really resonated with me as a mom, friend, wife, and woman. So often I find myself feeling guilty for letting Noah watch Mighty Machines while I get lunch thrown together, or beat myself up for missing a workout. Yet, if a friend calls and feels guilty for the exact.same.things. I am the first one to say, "You are being ridiculous...it's one day...you are an amazing (wife, mom, friend), and it's ok". It's ok. I don't know where the enormous pressure we put on ourselves comes from but in the past few days I have told myself on a number of occasions..."it's ok". And, guess what, I feel better leaving the guilt behind. I am actually able to focus on the things I did good versus the guilt of what I would have liked to have done better. 

Speaking of the self inflicted guilt, I told Scott the other day that I am actually so happy that we are having another boy and that we won't be raising girls. The amount of pressure that we, as women, put on ourselves is insane. And it starts FAR too early. The amount of background dialogue that runs through my head in any given moment is really unfortunate and I cannot be the only one to experience this. For example, sitting at a lunch enjoying time with a friend and all the while thinking about whether my hair is getting stringy, that zit I covered up this morning is showing, if I should order what I really want or the salad (I have no problem pigging out in front of my husband, but in front of a girlfriend...rarely!), if my tank top is cutting into my "armpit fat". This is ridiculous and it takes away from the time I should be enjoying with the person I am with (because I can assure you I am not remotely aware of any of these things happening to her, nor would I care if it was). Yet, I do believe this is the plight of women. We are constantly judging ourselves and, unfortunately, often one another. However, the self judging and pressure far exceed that which we place on others.  I am trying to let some of this go. To allow myself some room to breathe and enjoy myself and my life without the constant stream of thoughts and criticism running through the back of my mind. You could boil this down to "being present" but I think it is more than that. It is checking the insecurities at the door and embracing some self confidence. It is taking the compliments we receive and believing them versus shooting them down. I am the first one to shrug off a compliment versus saying "thank you" and adding that to my self confidence piggy bank. Instead, I am now going to start saving those pennies and cashing them in when the little negative thought monster starts creeping in. I can assure you I will still have pouty "I feel fat" or "I was a lousy mom" today moments but I am hoping to ease up on the self pressure a bit!

Back to having boys...Don't get me wrong, I know my boys will have their fair share of challenges and self doubt. It will be uncharted for me as I have no brothers nor experience being a boy ;-). Yet, I have to imagine that the insane amount of self introspection that girls experience has to be less for boys. Or maybe I am naive and will be facing a rude awakening as my boys examine their muscles, practice their corner kicks, and gel their hair. 

It all kind of reminds me of the scene in Eat, Pray, Love where they are eating pizza and Elizabeth Gilbert encourages her friend to indulge in the pizza and says, "I have no interest in being obese, I'm just through with the guilt". I think this is a very applicable statement to how I am trying to think lately. I have no interest in letting my parenting rules disappear, or giving up looking nice for a dinner with friends. However, I am going to stop making apologies or worrying (well, worrying less) when things slip or I miss a workout here or there (which is often in favor of spending time with my family...so why feel guilty for that?!). And, by golly (yes, I just used "by golly" on the blog), if I want to indulge in a giant bowl of pasta, I am going to enjoy it, not hate myself the minute I finish it. Make the choice, savor the process, and resume normal habits at the next opportunity.
So, that is hopefully my new lease on life. I hope to be able to continue to cut myself the same slack I so truthfully and easily give to my friends. Or, maybe I am just 31 weeks pregnant, with hips that are making me feel like I'm 80 and looking for excuses to sit on the couch and let Noah watch Cars ;-).

Monday, March 17, 2014

Coconut Retchless: Week 31

Size of Baby: Somewhere between 3 & 4 pounds and 16+ inches long.

Workouts: 3 Bar Method Classes, 1 Dish hike, and 4 Nana walks. Really enjoying my evenings sitting out back with Scott & Noah and finding it hard to motivate to go to class in the evenings. Trying to get back on track with 4 Bar Method classes a week though!

Maternity Clothes: Yes. 

Movement: Definitely becoming a more active guy as the weeks go on. He has been bouncing around all day today! I was reading that with Noah I felt most of his movements below my belly button at this point...with Coop it is almost always near my ribs or on my left hand side. It will be interesting to see where he is parked these days (head up/down?).

Symptoms: Hip pain. It is serious. I only get it if I sit in the same position for an extended period (i.e.-long car rides) or while sleeping. The sleep thing is becoming a problem. I wake up 5 or 6 times a night in excruciating pain. Last night I slept sitting up for 2 hours because I couldn't stand to be on my side. For the record, I have a pregnancy pillow (snoogle) and have even tried adding an additional pillow between my legs...neither gives me any relief. Starting to consider acupuncture if I can't get this under control. 

Sleepiness. I can power through a day when I am busy but if I have the opportunity for a rest (i.e.-most days when Noah is napping) I am finding myself needing about 40 minutes to recharge. I am also ready for bed at about 9pm. But, if I am distracted or out and about I don't truly miss it or become miserable if we are out late. Maybe it is tiredness of convenience?! Whatever it is, I give in because in a couple short months sleep will be an extremely limited resource!

What I Miss: We'll upgrade this to wine tasting! We went to Sonoma over the weekend and I am officially ready to be back in the participants arena versus DD classification! 

Girl or BoyBoy!
 
Belly button In or Out: Depends on how I am sitting/standing/time of day. I can definitely see it started to pop! 

Stretch Marks: Nope. 

Cravings: Pretzels and chocolate chips. Even if I'm not really hungry I can't resist this delicious little sweet & salty snack!
Best Moment This Week: The giant increase in movement from Coop. It is so reassuring to feel him jumping around! 


Me and Scott at Gloria on Sunday. Kristina and Scott demanded my bubbles be in the shot as it is seriously what I looked forward to alllllll week! But they also wanted the bump to be on display (demanding, these two!) hence the awkward pose.

This was the first time with a normal pose. Apparently the bump was a bit too discreet (probably good since not everyone shares the same opinions, and our doctor's, on champagne consumption while pregnant)!